One More Time, One More Chance

Last night, I dreamt of something from the distant past..

Back when he and I were both still together..

I’m sure it’s because of that bracelet I found yesterday..

Through the act of living itself, sadness piles up here and there..

“Even now, i still love you...”

I wrote that in a text message to a man i went out with for 1 month..

“But im sure that even if i had writen 1000 text messages back & forth.. My hearts probably wouldn't have moved even 1 centimeter closer..”

Over these past 1 month, I’ve only wanted to move forward & touch which i couldn’t reach..

Though I’ve never been able to tangibly define what it was..

Not knowing where those near-intimidating thoughts came from, i simply continued to study..

As knowing my heart had gradually lost it’s freedom & flexibility in bygone days..

And then one morning, when i realized that i had completely lost my earnest & acute feelings from long ago.. I knew i was at my limit..

Yesterday i dreamt a dream.. A dream from long ago..

Within a dream, the two of us were still together..

Walking around the city with laughing by each other..

In the distance, the lights shimmering in houses were set sparsley, far and wide..

All that was left upon the new day has come..

Just like that..

I wished without hesitation, that one day.. The two of us would be able.. To see the beautiful sky together again..

One More Time, One More Chance -- Yamazaki Masayoshi (Ost. 5 Minutes Per Second)

~Im always searching for you, always searching for your figure..

At the opposite train platform, or through a window into a back alley..

Though there's no way you could be here..

If wishes do come true, i want to be at your side..

There's nothing i cant do..

I'd give up everything to embrace you..

If im just diverting my sadness, anyone will do..

On this night where it seems the stars will fall from the sky, i want to be truthful to myself..

One more time, dont fade away, seasons..

One more time, i want that time when we fooled around together..

~I’m always searching for you, always searching for your figure..

At the intersection or in my dreams.

Though there's no way you could be here..

If miracles do occur, i want to show you now..

The new dawn, how i'll be from now on..

And the words of love i could never tell you..

The memories of summer revolve around me..

And your throbbing heartbeat that suddenly vanished..

~I’m always searching for you, always searching for your figure..

In the city at dawn, or in sakuragi-cho..

Though there's no way you could be here..

If wishes do come true, i want to be at your side..

There's nothing i cant do..

I'd give up everything to embrace you..

I’m always searching for you, always searching for even a fragment of you..

At a store im going to, or in the corner of a newspaper..

Though there's no way you could be here..

If miracles do occur, i want to show you now..

The new dawn, how i'll be from now on..

And the words of love i could never tell you..

I’ll always end up looking somewhere for your smile..

While waiting for the express train, or at a railroad crossing..

Though there's no way you could be here..

If i could live life over again, i would go to your side everytime..

For i want nothing..

More precious than you..

Spiderman 3

“Reverenge is like a POISON.. It can take you over! Before you know it, turns to something ugly..”

Forgiveness, is the most valuable gift.. Not for someone, but also for yourself.. To forgiving, maybe it’s not easy like as you say.. Everyone can say “sorry” or “I forgive you”, but actually forgiving it’s about how you can forget it and completely remove it from your mind..

Maybe you ever feel if being mad, like to reverenge someone already done bad things for you, it’s feel better..You can put off your anger to let they feel what you have feel before.. It seems like better.. But actualy, just like I said, reverenge is like a poison.. You will not stop to do that.. You will get addicted.. Maybe you feel happy, but once again.. It’s a bad things..

Just like Jesus said, “But I say unto you, love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you. . .If you love them which love you, what reward have you? Do not even the publicans do the same?” - - Mathew 5 : 44, 46..

Peter Parker already feel that.. He already falling down by his reverenge.. He can’t forgive his uncle’s murderer, and he being mad.. He do a lot of bad things, he feel like he was very great.. But actually, he just lose to control his self.. It’s just like Harry Osborn feel.. His reverenge just blinded his eyes to realize if Peter Parker it’s not the murder of his father.. And he just forget about their friendship.. Maybe he was forget if Peter Parker is his best friend.. But because of reverenge, it makes he blind of his eyes and his heart..

Forgiving someone is not only the best way for a better conclusion, but it’s also the best way to end your problem.. Because reverenge didn’t end your problem, it’s just make for a new problem.. And that will not over, if someone which never give up or realize and stop it..

So, try to be forgiven, start by now!!!

The Pursuit Of Happiness..

“God won’t give problems without any solution.. Every successful person has a painful story.. Every painful story has a successful ending..”

The story about man whose name Chris Gardner to pursuit his happiness.. Although he lives in hard condition, he always try to be happy to through his life.. Even he didn’t have much money, even his economy not in good condition, he never give up!! When he has kicked out because he can’t paid the rent house, he just always do his best.. He already have many sad experience like he and his son must sleep in toilet on rail station for a night, he has to queue in church’s place to get some room so he can sleep well with his son.. And when he didn’t get some room in church’s place, he buy a rail’s ticket for a night so he can sleep in there..Seems like really hard, but he never complaint about his life.. He always try to thankful about his life, even it’s really hard.. But he just believe if someday he will get a better life..

The seller become broker.. To be a broker, someone must have a good skill in arithmethic and being friendly.. Even he is not scholar, he is just a graduate from senior high school.. But like I said, he never give up and never stop trying.. Really nice quote which I get from this movie is “Don’t ever let someone tell you, you can’t do something!! If you want something, GO GET IT!! PERIOD..”

I get many moral’s points from this movie.. First is never give up!! You can do your best if you wanna try and never give up or being hesitant.. Every people have same chance to creates their good story.. To pursuit their happiness.. But once again, it’s all back into your decision.. What u have gonna do about your life, you’re just sigh or always believe if there will be a better story for tomorrow..

Second.. I think is a duty for wife to always accompany her husband, in sad or happy condition.. But in this story, his wife already left he behind.. It’s because she didn’t feel happy to love in hard condition.. So she leave her husband and her son to seek a better life.. So, someday.. I will not left my husband, even we have to live in hard condition.. Because marriage it’s not about you’re just live in good condition.. But in hard condition too..

Third.. As a child, I’m just have to believe my parents if they must giving their best to me.. I believe if they as a parents, they works hard to gets money it’s all just for my happiness.. I believe, if they want me to be success..

Fourth.. Even you live in hard condition, but don’t ever you lost your love for each other.. To help someone, to care someone.. If you can help them, if u able to help them, even u didn’t have money to help them.. Just remember, to helping someone, u can give your service.. Not always with your money.. To be friendly or smiling for someone, it can makes a good feel for them..

Fifth.. If someone ask for your help, don’t ever you feel if you’ve been contemptibled by them.. Just do your best and be positive.. Remember, to be success, you have to start it by zero level..

Sixth.. Believe if someday you will get your own happiness by your labor.. You get your labor by how much you spread your seed..